Kara DioGuardi at Sylvain Bitton and JT Torregiani's birthday Celebration at Les Deux on April 21, 2009 in Hollywood, California.Us Magazine
"I've never spoken about this. I had kind of a binge eating disorder where, instead of dealing with my emotions, I would stuff them down with food," the American Idol judge tells Extra.
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"I never threw up or starved myself," continues DioGuardi. "It was an eating disorder. I actually went into a treatment center for it...I would get up and eat in the middle of the night."
DioGuardi blames her food problems on insecurity while growing up.
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"I really was a creative kid who didn't know she was creative and didn't have those outlets because I was always afraid to join the theater group and not perform," she says.
After she moved out to L.A. to become a songwriter, she became healthier.
"The moment I started doing music, the moment I did what I loved to do in my life and committed to it, I didn't have those problems anymore," she says. "I have my outlet. I have that form of expression. I can go to the studio and talk about my feelings."
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But she still has moments of self doubt on Idol.
"I had this craziness in my head that I had to be perfect all the time and I face it now on Idol 25 years later," she admits. "It's kind of like, 'Oh god, why did I say that? Why did I do this?' But I made this commitment in my life to face my fears and if I am afraid of something, I make sure I do it."
DioGuardi built a studio at an L.A.-area treatment center, Phoenix House, where she now works with kids to help them find confidence. "It's real therapeutic," she says.
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stratobluOh, you bet!! Of all the horrible problems in the world, this one is right at the top of my list..... Can't believe I'm even reading this CRAP--Shame on me (and the rest of you who respond to this!!)report abuseposted April 24, 2009 3:52 PM PDT
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MandyGood for Her!report abuseposted April 24, 2009 3:04 PM PDT
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billLThanks for sharing I think that will inspire many people. In not only identifying the problem but also the solution. You've been racheted up a few in my book girl. Thanks for being "real."report abuseposted April 24, 2009 2:47 PM PDT
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Jody Bthis is a new timereport abuseposted April 24, 2009 2:33 PM PDT
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LynnHThanks Kara for sharing your story. I had the same eating disorder as you. I was too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. But, now I know I'm not alone.report abuseposted April 24, 2009 1:25 PM PDT
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Jared B1streport abuseposted April 24, 2009 11:14 AM PDT
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Thyda BunYou suck!report abuseposted April 24, 2009 8:49 AM PDT
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beesterWay to go with helping kids with there confidence....Now I'm starting to see her differently.report abuseposted April 24, 2009 7:25 AM PDT
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FrogKara, Is this your plea to stay on American Idol? Sorry but everything that Randy says you repeat it with a different twist. What's up with that!report abuseposted April 24, 2009 6:40 AM PDT
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RoxyThis article speaks volumes about this woman's character and perserverance. I admire her for her accomlishments but I respect her for being open, genuine and "real."report abuseposted April 24, 2009 5:18 AM PDT
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