Fergie on Past Drug Abuse: "It Ruins You"

Us Magazine - October 13, 2009 7:46 PM PDT
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Fergie opens up about her harrowing struggle with drug addiction in a new interview with the Times of London.

"It started with ecstasy. I loved ecstasy. Loved it, loved it. It was great at first, then it just went...." the Black Eyed Peas frontwoman, 34, says.

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When high, she suffered from spells of paranoia and she blacked out the windows in her apartment, convinced she was under FBI surveillance. She also had delusions and once had an eight-hour conversation with a laundry hamper. Another time, a drug dealer held a gun up to her head as she tried to buy marijuana in a bad neighborhood in L.A.

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Of crystal meth, which became her drug of choice, she says, "It ruins you."

Fergie -- who will star alongside Penelope Cruz in musical Nine this fall -- blames some of her past troubles on being a child star.

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"What happens when you're a child professional is that you have to be, well, professional. You're taught not to have tantrums, to always people-please," says Fergie, who appeared in Disney's Kids Incorporated from 1984 to 1990.

She admits, "That's part of how I got into [drugs] later."

Fergie says her "publicists get really mad with [her] for talking about" her struggles.

"But I don't care," she adds. "For me, it's something I went through. It's an epidemic, and it's important to talk about it because it's a very, very hard thing to stop."

Fergie admits she's still judged for her past even though she hasn't used drugs in 10 years.

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"I'm trying to get a thicker skin. I like to be aware of people's perceptions of me, but when you put it as a priority, as a means to judging your worth, that's when it can be dangerous," she says.

"There's no rule book on how to do this," she continues.

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  • Fhjjf
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    report abuseposted October 14, 2009 1:42 PM PDT
  • Griselda
    well i fully understand where fregie is coming frm...i was an ecstacy user myself and the drug makes u feel like you're somebody and you're on top of the world...but after awhile you start to get paronoid and feel like people are watching you. and you start to have a conversation with things you woldn't talk to. also you do things sexually that you wouldn't do. i th
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 8:18 PM PDT
  • LaceyO
    really! dag yea that crystal meth will make u a wierdo.
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 8:18 PM PDT
  • Working girl
    Good for her and if it helps someone else by talking about it, so be it! Congrats, Fergie!
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 8:04 PM PDT
  • Barbara
    in recovery; you have to talk about your addiction to over come it. thanks for sharing Fergie
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 6:02 PM PDT
  • Barbara
    in recovery; you have to talk about your addiction to over come it. thanks for sharing Fergie
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 6:02 PM PDT
  • Kareem d
    I think she is as real as they come
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 5:30 PM PDT
  • LR
    Is this why she peed her pants onstage?
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 5:26 PM PDT
  • sursuciofla
    That's why I like Fergie. All the haters go go to hell. She's flawed just like us all. She had an addiction and she will battle that for rest of life. Glad she found a good man and is happy. God Bless Fergie!
    report abuseposted October 13, 2009 5:17 PM PDT
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